Why oh why oh why.

Sigh.
Bit of an update.As you know I tried changing my working pattern so I can put the girls to bed.I asked my manager and he said they had been refused as I hadn't hit my target!.
Well I went and had a huge rant at HR who are not mutual and they said they would look into it.
A week later my manager has been sacked? (some are saying he has resigned,but I don't believe it.) and on Tuesday morning I recieved a brand new flexible working hours form to fill out!.
Apparently HR never recieved my first application so it looks like ex manager has just binned it and made his own decision.I am fuming but hopefully now we will get somewhere!.
I just hate that place!.

On another note it seems a year of pregnancies again,everyone is pregnant it feels like,work colleagues,friends,online friends!..I though will NOT be having a 2012 baby,if I ever get broody I remind myself of the sleepless nights which I am still experiencing lol.But good luck to them,i do miss pregnancy and birth but it just doesn't agree with me.

Update on the girls.
Madison needs a haircut! 3 years old and all she needs is just a trim of her fringe bless.She is growing up so fast,i can't believe she will be at school next September!.
We are fully toilet trained in the day now with very little accidents,maybe once every few days when she has had too much to drink in a short period of time.Madisons nappies are still very full in the morning so I think she won't be dry at night for a while yet even though she is requesting to wear knickers at night.

Olivia is doing great also,16 months now and still in 9-12 month clothes,she is such a dinky dot but makes up for it with her amazing personality.She knows her own mind that is for sure,her favourite word is "naw" for no lol this gets used alot during the day mostly during nappy changes!.I felt awful today Liv had her first bust lip at playgroup! She fell over and banged her cheek and lip,bless,She is okay now but it was such a shock!

I am off to read a book now I have wanted for ages-the girl with the dragon tattoo! Hehe.

New year.New Thoughts.New Life.

Well we are in 2012,the year it is all supposed to end or when the calendar for the mayans just ran out lol.
I'm hoping this year is better than 2011,it's certainly our last in this awful house as we are moving out to stay with my nan in April.We could of gone earlier but Paul doesn't get his holidays till then so we can both be off whilst the kids are at the childminders so we can get everything out.I can't wait,we have decided to save for a mortgage instead as it is just better in the long run.
I know it's only the start of the year but I can't believe the girls will be 2 and 4 by the end of it.Madison will be starting school next year and Liv will be 3 and I can go to college yaay.
So the plan for this year is to concentrate on driving lessons as we will be able to afford it now,volunteer for 9-12 months at the hospital,starting this month!.I can't wait to start,I'm hoping it will give me the determination to go for my dream and not put me off as some people have suggested.I'm also hoping the volunteering will lead to another job role as I cannot stand to be here for much longer especially now as they have refused my flexible working hours although some people get their shift changed so easily.
We had a quiet NYE,i fell asleep at 10.30 lol but someone has to get up with the girls and you can bet your dollar on it that it won't be Paul.The girls woke this morning at 5.30 or much earlier as Madison had turned the light on and was running around whilst Liv was happily bouncing away in her cot lol.I define 5.30 as night even the extra 30 minutes so its 6 would be better,i won't get chance for a nap either bleh.I will rectify the spelling errors later.

End of year picture post

Well blog,this will most likely be my last post of 2011 so lets have some lovely pictures to end it on a high as it has been a horrid year.I'm feeling positive that 2012 will be our good year.

Madison

Olivia

November already.

Where has this year gone? It really seems to have flown by.
I've been having a good think and have decided to put my career options on hold for a few years.It's just not feasable for me to go to college at the moment or even do any courses as I don't feel I have any spare time.I'm going to make the most of my girls whilst they are tiny and re evaluate things when Madison is 7 and Liv is 5,at least then I will have the spare time and commitment to my career.I'm trying not to feel down as part of me thinks I will just never reach my goal whilst another side is saying your still going and have plenty of time.
Wish I could of seen into the future,i will badgering at my girls to get good grades in school!
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