Well we are in 2012,the year it is all supposed to end or when the calendar for the mayans just ran out lol.
I'm hoping this year is better than 2011,it's certainly our last in this awful house as we are moving out to stay with my nan in April.We could of gone earlier but Paul doesn't get his holidays till then so we can both be off whilst the kids are at the childminders so we can get everything out.I can't wait,we have decided to save for a mortgage instead as it is just better in the long run.
I know it's only the start of the year but I can't believe the girls will be 2 and 4 by the end of it.Madison will be starting school next year and Liv will be 3 and I can go to college yaay.
So the plan for this year is to concentrate on driving lessons as we will be able to afford it now,volunteer for 9-12 months at the hospital,starting this month!.I can't wait to start,I'm hoping it will give me the determination to go for my dream and not put me off as some people have suggested.I'm also hoping the volunteering will lead to another job role as I cannot stand to be here for much longer especially now as they have refused my flexible working hours although some people get their shift changed so easily.
We had a quiet NYE,i fell asleep at 10.30 lol but someone has to get up with the girls and you can bet your dollar on it that it won't be Paul.The girls woke this morning at 5.30 or much earlier as Madison had turned the light on and was running around whilst Liv was happily bouncing away in her cot lol.I define 5.30 as night even the extra 30 minutes so its 6 would be better,i won't get chance for a nap either bleh.I will rectify the spelling errors later.
Saturday 31 December 2011
Monday 26 December 2011
End of year picture post
Well blog,this will most likely be my last post of 2011 so lets have some lovely pictures to end it on a high as it has been a horrid year.I'm feeling positive that 2012 will be our good year.
Madison
Madison
Olivia
updates.
Well my last post was December 1st and it's now the 26th!.
In between we have had Madisons 3rd birthday,horrible drainage problems and Christmas.
Madison had an amazing 3rd birthday and was well and truly spoilt.She loved her little party,being the centre of attention dressed as a princess complete with princess castle cake!.It was so funny when we started singing happy birthday she ran away and went all grumpy lol until she seen her cake and was beaming with smiles,so glad I got it on film.It was an improvement on last years as Madison actually cried when we sang and brought her cake in,she never has been one for singing.
Liv is doing brilliantly,coming on so much especially with her speech,new words this week were "teddy" and "seetie" for sweetie lol,she also understands commands like "go and lie down whilst I change your bum" or "go and get me the wipes/teddy please".
We have had some disgusting going ons with our drains,in the past 3 weeks it has been blocked twice resulting in raw sewage in the yard!.The system is backfalling which means the water is running back towards the house instead of away.I really have come to hate this house,this on top of the black mould and shoddy workmanship.I just cannot wait to move to my nans,we have decided to save for a mortgage instead of getting a council house as were sick of renting!.We are hopefully moving in March.
Christmas was great with Madison having a real understanding this year.She watched her message from father Christmas online then left him some milk and cookies out.For the reindeers,marshmellows and carrots were left out.6am came and Madison was straight downstairs to see if he had been lol,Liv gave the presents a good opening too.We had a 3 bird roast for dinner this year,it wad so nice and better than dry turkey.It was Livs first Christmas dinner and she thoroughly enjoyed it along with chocolate pudding and ice cream for afters.
I will have to upload some pictures when I come online,the girls look so alike!.
In between we have had Madisons 3rd birthday,horrible drainage problems and Christmas.
Madison had an amazing 3rd birthday and was well and truly spoilt.She loved her little party,being the centre of attention dressed as a princess complete with princess castle cake!.It was so funny when we started singing happy birthday she ran away and went all grumpy lol until she seen her cake and was beaming with smiles,so glad I got it on film.It was an improvement on last years as Madison actually cried when we sang and brought her cake in,she never has been one for singing.
Liv is doing brilliantly,coming on so much especially with her speech,new words this week were "teddy" and "seetie" for sweetie lol,she also understands commands like "go and lie down whilst I change your bum" or "go and get me the wipes/teddy please".
We have had some disgusting going ons with our drains,in the past 3 weeks it has been blocked twice resulting in raw sewage in the yard!.The system is backfalling which means the water is running back towards the house instead of away.I really have come to hate this house,this on top of the black mould and shoddy workmanship.I just cannot wait to move to my nans,we have decided to save for a mortgage instead of getting a council house as were sick of renting!.We are hopefully moving in March.
Christmas was great with Madison having a real understanding this year.She watched her message from father Christmas online then left him some milk and cookies out.For the reindeers,marshmellows and carrots were left out.6am came and Madison was straight downstairs to see if he had been lol,Liv gave the presents a good opening too.We had a 3 bird roast for dinner this year,it wad so nice and better than dry turkey.It was Livs first Christmas dinner and she thoroughly enjoyed it along with chocolate pudding and ice cream for afters.
I will have to upload some pictures when I come online,the girls look so alike!.
Thursday 1 December 2011
eek it's December
This time 3 years ago I was 1 day overdue.I had a consultant appointment including a specialist scan to see how my amniotic fluid levels were.I then had a membrane sweep and was already 1-2cms then Madison came into the world early hours of the 4th December.
We are having a little party for Madison tomorrow,she is so excited bless.I cannot believe how fast these 3 years have gone,they really don't stay babies for long.I have so much to do including all the decorating and a major tidy up lol.Paul is at a works doo so I'm left in charge-great!
I will update some photos of tomorrow when I get chance.
On another note I start volunteering in January for our local hospital being a ward assistant.I think this is the only way I'm going to get experience and proove that I really do want to change careers!.
I am so excited,i am doing 9-2 then off to my awful paid job from 4-8.It is going to be tiring but you don't get anywhere without a bit of hard work.
Simone.
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We are having a little party for Madison tomorrow,she is so excited bless.I cannot believe how fast these 3 years have gone,they really don't stay babies for long.I have so much to do including all the decorating and a major tidy up lol.Paul is at a works doo so I'm left in charge-great!
I will update some photos of tomorrow when I get chance.
On another note I start volunteering in January for our local hospital being a ward assistant.I think this is the only way I'm going to get experience and proove that I really do want to change careers!.
I am so excited,i am doing 9-2 then off to my awful paid job from 4-8.It is going to be tiring but you don't get anywhere without a bit of hard work.
Simone.
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Monday 14 November 2011
All about Madison.
Today we had Madisons checkup after her being ill in July for maybe metabolic acidosis,all her test results came back normal which is a relief but then again we still don't have an answer as to why she was so ill and that worries me alot.The Dr said he had never seen anything like it before and how such a young person could recover so quickly when their body was nearly all acid which brought on the fits etc.We don't have to go again which is great and they said to just bring her up if we are at all worried.They all weighed her and measured her length and circumference,all normal.
Thinking about that day makes me realise how lucky we are to have her and how things could have been so different,i think she definately has a few people in heaven looking out for her.She is the most amazing little girl and I couldn't ask for anything more,even when she is having a grumpy day.
I love you magoo.
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Thinking about that day makes me realise how lucky we are to have her and how things could have been so different,i think she definately has a few people in heaven looking out for her.She is the most amazing little girl and I couldn't ask for anything more,even when she is having a grumpy day.
I love you magoo.
X
Sunday 13 November 2011
Saving.
This year for Christmas I saved with park.I knew that I couldn't just put the money away as I would easily spend it!.With park it was easy and convenient to put the money away each month in exchange for vouchers.I recieved the vouchers at the beginning of October.I got Madisons and Olivia's Christmas presents and some of Madisons birthday presents! I've just put an order in for next year but included £50 of M & S vouchers for food hehe it is the season to be jolly afterall,I only really need to buy for Paul but I have no idea what to get he is hard to buy for.
Apparently the coca cola Christmas advert was on last night although I didn't see it which means we are definately in the festive season now!.Woo.
X
Apparently the coca cola Christmas advert was on last night although I didn't see it which means we are definately in the festive season now!.Woo.
X
Friday 11 November 2011
Tantrums Galore.
Well it's not even near bedtime yet and the girls have both been quite naughty today.Surprisingly Liv being the worst!.
We went to the park to get some leaves to do prints and pictures with.I decided to let Liv have a walk around,she LOVED IT!,loved IT so much in fact that I couldn't get her back into the pram.It must of took me around 10 minutes of screaming and arched backs before I eventually managed to get her back in!.She has tantrums at home which involve her throwing herself on the floor and screaming until we pick her up.Little madam!.But then Olivia will do something cute which just melts my heart,like now she has just stopped nursing to pull her tongue out!Awww!
Madison has been full of the grumps today too,she had a bad dream last night so didn't get a good sleep and when Madison doesn't get a good sleep,boy she gets cranky!.
A plus side of today is that I got some lovely autumnal shots of the girls and Madison did a fab pic which I will update in a later photo post!.
We went to the park to get some leaves to do prints and pictures with.I decided to let Liv have a walk around,she LOVED IT!,loved IT so much in fact that I couldn't get her back into the pram.It must of took me around 10 minutes of screaming and arched backs before I eventually managed to get her back in!.She has tantrums at home which involve her throwing herself on the floor and screaming until we pick her up.Little madam!.But then Olivia will do something cute which just melts my heart,like now she has just stopped nursing to pull her tongue out!Awww!
Madison has been full of the grumps today too,she had a bad dream last night so didn't get a good sleep and when Madison doesn't get a good sleep,boy she gets cranky!.
A plus side of today is that I got some lovely autumnal shots of the girls and Madison did a fab pic which I will update in a later photo post!.
Thursday 10 November 2011
So excited.
I wrapped all Madison's birthday presents last night,she is going to be so excited.This year she has given me a list of what she wants,most importantly on her list is a "dolly and a pram" so I have a gotten her a hello kitty set.She is so grown up now!,it's amazing how much she has come on in a year,her speech is fab.
This year will just be a quiet party,nothing too big and a trip to a playcentre.
I think next year I am going to start my driving lessons,it is getting me down.I wish I had done it when I had the chance but it just wasn't high on my list of priorities.I will even have to do my theory test again boo.Why didn't I stick at it?? I am so annoyed with myself.My other thought is to do manual or automatic,Paul drives automatic and it's just like a go cart lol but everyone else is saying do manual.To be honest I don't see why it matters,my insurance will be high regardless! And it's unlikely I will be offered a company car in the line of work I want to go into.
Eek now the girls are arguing over a chair *sigh*
X
This year will just be a quiet party,nothing too big and a trip to a playcentre.
I think next year I am going to start my driving lessons,it is getting me down.I wish I had done it when I had the chance but it just wasn't high on my list of priorities.I will even have to do my theory test again boo.Why didn't I stick at it?? I am so annoyed with myself.My other thought is to do manual or automatic,Paul drives automatic and it's just like a go cart lol but everyone else is saying do manual.To be honest I don't see why it matters,my insurance will be high regardless! And it's unlikely I will be offered a company car in the line of work I want to go into.
Eek now the girls are arguing over a chair *sigh*
X
Monday 7 November 2011
Tired.
Think i may book myself into the travel lodge for a decent nights sleep lol.
Last night Paul's alarm went off 3 hours early so he thought it was 6am but it was actually 3am-argh!.He went for a shower and woke the girls up,it then took Madison over an hour and half to get back to sleep but she did then sleep till 7 whereas Liv got up at 6 and is still full of beans.I wish i had her energy lol.
Work again today :( at least it is my last day in hehe.
I'm currently waiting for a delivery from approved foods which does food at discount prices either becase they have just past their date or they have them in bulk.Hopefully i will get the one hour delivery slot soon otherwise i'm going to miss it!
We bought quite a bit including 6 packets of pasta!.The girls can't get enough and it's such an easy tea,also 24 galaxy cake bars,i have a sweet tooth or maybe an addition? haha but hey it's Christmas soon,why not put on an extra few pounds.
Speaking of which i am taking Madison to see Father Christmas this month,it will be her first time,i hope she isn't scared.
Right i best be off seeing as i have an umbrella dangling over my head-cheers Madison more bad luck lol.
Last night Paul's alarm went off 3 hours early so he thought it was 6am but it was actually 3am-argh!.He went for a shower and woke the girls up,it then took Madison over an hour and half to get back to sleep but she did then sleep till 7 whereas Liv got up at 6 and is still full of beans.I wish i had her energy lol.
Work again today :( at least it is my last day in hehe.
I'm currently waiting for a delivery from approved foods which does food at discount prices either becase they have just past their date or they have them in bulk.Hopefully i will get the one hour delivery slot soon otherwise i'm going to miss it!
We bought quite a bit including 6 packets of pasta!.The girls can't get enough and it's such an easy tea,also 24 galaxy cake bars,i have a sweet tooth or maybe an addition? haha but hey it's Christmas soon,why not put on an extra few pounds.
Speaking of which i am taking Madison to see Father Christmas this month,it will be her first time,i hope she isn't scared.
Right i best be off seeing as i have an umbrella dangling over my head-cheers Madison more bad luck lol.
Ramblings.
It's that time again,work! It's so boring and repetitive,i feel as if I'm losing brain cells for every day I work here lol.
But on the bright side I'm only two days a week for the rest of the month,i have alot of holidays.
On Monday we are at the hospital with Madison for her checkup,the Dr cancelled last time as he was ill,hopefully we will have some test results back and see if there is an explanation as why she was so ill a few months back.It scares me to think about that day and if I'd left it any longer before ringing the ambulance what would have happened.It was so scary to have the ambulance put their blue lights on and rush her in,but then she bounced back so quick?.Apparently the the talk of the hospital among drs but none with a diagnosis except possible compensated metabolic acidosis.Will update when we have been on Monday.
Also seeing as its Christmas soon Santa could give me my present early,some extra cash,i feel as if all we do is chase bills month after month.We have just applied for a council house so hopefully we won't be waiting too long as although this house will always be a part of me as Liv was born here I still despise it.It has black mould,shodderly fitted and its far too small,there is clutter everywhere,it's getting us down now *sigh*.
I best go get the magoo girls ready :)
X
But on the bright side I'm only two days a week for the rest of the month,i have alot of holidays.
On Monday we are at the hospital with Madison for her checkup,the Dr cancelled last time as he was ill,hopefully we will have some test results back and see if there is an explanation as why she was so ill a few months back.It scares me to think about that day and if I'd left it any longer before ringing the ambulance what would have happened.It was so scary to have the ambulance put their blue lights on and rush her in,but then she bounced back so quick?.Apparently the the talk of the hospital among drs but none with a diagnosis except possible compensated metabolic acidosis.Will update when we have been on Monday.
Also seeing as its Christmas soon Santa could give me my present early,some extra cash,i feel as if all we do is chase bills month after month.We have just applied for a council house so hopefully we won't be waiting too long as although this house will always be a part of me as Liv was born here I still despise it.It has black mould,shodderly fitted and its far too small,there is clutter everywhere,it's getting us down now *sigh*.
I best go get the magoo girls ready :)
X
Sunday 6 November 2011
November already.
Where has this year gone? It really seems to have flown by.
I've been having a good think and have decided to put my career options on hold for a few years.It's just not feasable for me to go to college at the moment or even do any courses as I don't feel I have any spare time.I'm going to make the most of my girls whilst they are tiny and re evaluate things when Madison is 7 and Liv is 5,at least then I will have the spare time and commitment to my career.I'm trying not to feel down as part of me thinks I will just never reach my goal whilst another side is saying your still going and have plenty of time.
Wish I could of seen into the future,i will badgering at my girls to get good grades in school!
X
I've been having a good think and have decided to put my career options on hold for a few years.It's just not feasable for me to go to college at the moment or even do any courses as I don't feel I have any spare time.I'm going to make the most of my girls whilst they are tiny and re evaluate things when Madison is 7 and Liv is 5,at least then I will have the spare time and commitment to my career.I'm trying not to feel down as part of me thinks I will just never reach my goal whilst another side is saying your still going and have plenty of time.
Wish I could of seen into the future,i will badgering at my girls to get good grades in school!
X
Sunday 30 October 2011
Update.
I am now able to update using my phone yaay so I will be able to update more.
What has been going on?
Well we went away on our first family holiday last month to a gorgeous little cottage in Scarborough.It was amazing and we had such a fantastic time.I can't wait to go back next year it is so relaxing and the girls will be older so I think Olivia will enjoy it more too.Both girls loved watching the chickens run around and eating the freshly laid eggs.We stayed on a working fab which was fab for Madison as she learnt about tractors and animals.There were a few tantrums from Madison due to tiredness which we have found is the main reason for her being naughty but then she won't have a nap so what can you do! All in all though it was great,although I really want a hot tub now lol.
The girls.
Olivia has mastered walking now and is very confident,walking everywhere,rarely crawling.She is such a cheeky little character who loves her food! Her speech is coming on great too,her favourite word still being "yeah yeah" although now we also have "bye" "hiyaaa" "mummuma" and "daddda".We are still breastfeeding too although Paul proclaimed last night she is too old! I then reminded him of the WHO guidelines! And the fact she is such a boob monster lol.
Madison is great also,we started potty training around a month ago and Madison took to it really well with only a few accidents on day one but now things are getting tricky again as we are having problems with her bowels which we have been for over a year.The Dr has finally referred her and we have an appointment next week which is very quick and hopefully it will help.Madison is also turning 3 in just over a month and she is so excited,she is really into being a princess so were having a princess cake and doing what we did last year,blowing up loads of balloons then putting her presents in them.When she wakes up and comes down she will just see balloons then have a look and find her presents hehe.Then most likely we will have a little party and take her out for the day.
Me.
Well I am good,tired but good.Still working in the hell hole but we just cannot afford for me to get a lower paid job especially with Pauls wage being cut next year.We could do with some good luck!
I am hoping to start volunteering in the new year at the local hospital which will help give me the skills and experience needed to be able to change careers,although recently I have been wondering whether I should just give up on the nursing dream and focus on something I can get going on now,maybe managerial? Although not at this company lol.
Simone.
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What has been going on?
Well we went away on our first family holiday last month to a gorgeous little cottage in Scarborough.It was amazing and we had such a fantastic time.I can't wait to go back next year it is so relaxing and the girls will be older so I think Olivia will enjoy it more too.Both girls loved watching the chickens run around and eating the freshly laid eggs.We stayed on a working fab which was fab for Madison as she learnt about tractors and animals.There were a few tantrums from Madison due to tiredness which we have found is the main reason for her being naughty but then she won't have a nap so what can you do! All in all though it was great,although I really want a hot tub now lol.
The girls.
Olivia has mastered walking now and is very confident,walking everywhere,rarely crawling.She is such a cheeky little character who loves her food! Her speech is coming on great too,her favourite word still being "yeah yeah" although now we also have "bye" "hiyaaa" "mummuma" and "daddda".We are still breastfeeding too although Paul proclaimed last night she is too old! I then reminded him of the WHO guidelines! And the fact she is such a boob monster lol.
Madison is great also,we started potty training around a month ago and Madison took to it really well with only a few accidents on day one but now things are getting tricky again as we are having problems with her bowels which we have been for over a year.The Dr has finally referred her and we have an appointment next week which is very quick and hopefully it will help.Madison is also turning 3 in just over a month and she is so excited,she is really into being a princess so were having a princess cake and doing what we did last year,blowing up loads of balloons then putting her presents in them.When she wakes up and comes down she will just see balloons then have a look and find her presents hehe.Then most likely we will have a little party and take her out for the day.
Me.
Well I am good,tired but good.Still working in the hell hole but we just cannot afford for me to get a lower paid job especially with Pauls wage being cut next year.We could do with some good luck!
I am hoping to start volunteering in the new year at the local hospital which will help give me the skills and experience needed to be able to change careers,although recently I have been wondering whether I should just give up on the nursing dream and focus on something I can get going on now,maybe managerial? Although not at this company lol.
Simone.
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Tuesday 6 September 2011
My baby is one!
Olivia is now a whole one years old! I just can't believe it,where does the time go? It doesn't seem a whole year ago that she was a day old and we were having cuggles on the sofa.Now she is a proper little cheeky chops who never ceases to amaze me!.
On Saturday we had a party and a bbq for her,with a whopping 20+ guests.Liv was spoiled rotten and loved every minute.She especially loved her cake.
It's sometimes hard to believe how fast they grow up.
And we made it to the one year breastfeeding milestone! I have decided to carry on and see how things go as of the past 4 nights she has slept through which was the only reason i would consider giving up,but if she is sleeping then i don't see the need.
Ahh love my little family.
On Saturday we had a party and a bbq for her,with a whopping 20+ guests.Liv was spoiled rotten and loved every minute.She especially loved her cake.
It's sometimes hard to believe how fast they grow up.
And we made it to the one year breastfeeding milestone! I have decided to carry on and see how things go as of the past 4 nights she has slept through which was the only reason i would consider giving up,but if she is sleeping then i don't see the need.
Ahh love my little family.
Wednesday 31 August 2011
Where does time go?
This time last year it was my due date! I 100% knew Liv wouldn't be an early bird as her sister arrived 3 days late too.I can't believe how fast that has gone and in 5 days she will be ONE! She took her first steps two weeks away,two little wobbly ones but has since decided that is enough lol and has only took two more since haha,we have nicknamed her Nev after the little puppet on CbbC as all she says at the moment is "yeah".Olivia has also started giving kisses too which is just too cute,eeek she won't be a baby for much longer :(.
We are having a party which has turned out to be quite a big celebration but hey your only one once.We have everything ready now and just need to get the final touches,i can't wait,i think i'm more excited than Madison who has decided she wants to dress up as a princess-bless.
Then on the 10th September we are going away for a week in a lovely private cottage,just what we needed after this very up and down year.I can't wait to sink in the hot tub after a day out whilst the kids are in bed and just relax!
We are having a party which has turned out to be quite a big celebration but hey your only one once.We have everything ready now and just need to get the final touches,i can't wait,i think i'm more excited than Madison who has decided she wants to dress up as a princess-bless.
Then on the 10th September we are going away for a week in a lovely private cottage,just what we needed after this very up and down year.I can't wait to sink in the hot tub after a day out whilst the kids are in bed and just relax!
Saturday 30 July 2011
A Long Hard Day.
I sometimes wonder if i am cut out to be a mum on days like this when all Madison has wanted is daddy and i am "disgusting" or "awful" and Liv is winging the place down unless she is in my arms as her 5th/6th teeth are about to cut.Where is that hole i can just jump straight into?
Hoping tomorrow is better as i have had enough today!
**big sigh**
Hoping tomorrow is better as i have had enough today!
**big sigh**
Friday 15 July 2011
Oh blog how neglected you have been.I am sorry.
Whoa an update is LONG overdue!
Major milestones that have happened since the last update-Olivia is now crawling! and a right little speed demon she is too,she also is starting to pull to stand and has four teeth!.She is so different to Madison who didn't start doing this till 11 months.I'm not used to such a small baby crawling around lol.She also says "mummuma,dadada,iiiyaaa and nanana".
Liv also had her 8-12 month check on Tuesday and all is well although her weight gain is a bit slow i'm not concerned she is meeting development milestones and still getting mummy milk plus she eats for England so i imagine she just burns alot off lol.
Madison is doing great also although she doesn't like sleeping in her own room at the moment as she thinks there are monsters in there-bless! So she has been sleeping in our room something we are going to tackle tomorrow-wish me luck! lol.Madison's speech has always been good but now it is amazing,i love our little conversations and sing alongs,her favourite song at the moment is ba ba black sheep :) she sings this word for word and even says "one for incy spider"-too cute!
Here are my beautiful girls doing row row row your boat together
Now myself i'm doing good,i try not to let my job get me own but it's so hard when it is the most boring job going and you have someone lurking over your back to see if you have got your sales for the day.I did get a job offer from a care company but they operate on a zero hours contract which is useless so i am only doing bank work for them.I need to do an unpaid training course with them then i can start but they rang me the other day saying they couldn't get a reference from one of my previous jobs and could i chase it up.Eh? that is what your paid for!
I think for the moment being i am going to concentrate on doing my driving lessons,i just need to do something proactive.I feel such a failure i am no where near what i want to be and i want my girls to be proud of me.
Major milestones that have happened since the last update-Olivia is now crawling! and a right little speed demon she is too,she also is starting to pull to stand and has four teeth!.She is so different to Madison who didn't start doing this till 11 months.I'm not used to such a small baby crawling around lol.She also says "mummuma,dadada,iiiyaaa and nanana".
Liv also had her 8-12 month check on Tuesday and all is well although her weight gain is a bit slow i'm not concerned she is meeting development milestones and still getting mummy milk plus she eats for England so i imagine she just burns alot off lol.
Madison is doing great also although she doesn't like sleeping in her own room at the moment as she thinks there are monsters in there-bless! So she has been sleeping in our room something we are going to tackle tomorrow-wish me luck! lol.Madison's speech has always been good but now it is amazing,i love our little conversations and sing alongs,her favourite song at the moment is ba ba black sheep :) she sings this word for word and even says "one for incy spider"-too cute!
Here are my beautiful girls doing row row row your boat together
Now myself i'm doing good,i try not to let my job get me own but it's so hard when it is the most boring job going and you have someone lurking over your back to see if you have got your sales for the day.I did get a job offer from a care company but they operate on a zero hours contract which is useless so i am only doing bank work for them.I need to do an unpaid training course with them then i can start but they rang me the other day saying they couldn't get a reference from one of my previous jobs and could i chase it up.Eh? that is what your paid for!
I think for the moment being i am going to concentrate on doing my driving lessons,i just need to do something proactive.I feel such a failure i am no where near what i want to be and i want my girls to be proud of me.
Sunday 15 May 2011
Where to begin?
I am now back at work,i had to do 2.5 weeks of training which was sheer hell,thankfully it has been done now and i got 97% in my home insurance regulations exam and 100% in my financial services license exam :).Nothing at work changes except the faces as the place has such a high turnover rate,they are not too happy that i am back at work a breastfeeding mama,i even had to go home on day 1 as they had no where for me to express,even had the cheek to suggest the toilet!!! Since then they have upped their game and booked a meeting room for me every day.I love finishing at 8pm going home then feeding my Liv she's usually asleep but i wake her up as she doesn't have much milk at the childminders usually 2-3oz.
Update on the kids.
Olivia has got her FIRST tooth,it is so cute! and took what seems like forever to come through seeing as Madison had a couple at this stage.You can just see it on this picture,it's her bottom front left one.
Olivia is still trying her hardest to crawl,she gets on all fours,starts rocking but has one foot stuck and just can't fathom it out.She will do it in her own time.
Madison is a nightmare at the moment,she really has got the terrible 2s.Everynight for the past i'd say four weeks she has woken up only one to two hours after going to bed screaming and moaning to come down or go into our bed.She then has taken a good 45 minutes to put back to sleep.It's either this or she will be a nightmare to put to sleep,last night read her 7 stories,yes 7 and she wanted more,i said "no" and went out of the room and she went CRAZY! The only thing that got her back into bed was me telling her i was going to take her beloved "bun bun" away which i feel mean for saying but it worked!
Her speech is coming on more and more,earlier in the bath she got on all fours and said "Look mummy i am swimming like a fish" hehe so cute.
This was her the other day at the park,they've just put loads of new stuff in including 3 slides,she loves it!
Update on the kids.
Olivia has got her FIRST tooth,it is so cute! and took what seems like forever to come through seeing as Madison had a couple at this stage.You can just see it on this picture,it's her bottom front left one.
Olivia is still trying her hardest to crawl,she gets on all fours,starts rocking but has one foot stuck and just can't fathom it out.She will do it in her own time.
Madison is a nightmare at the moment,she really has got the terrible 2s.Everynight for the past i'd say four weeks she has woken up only one to two hours after going to bed screaming and moaning to come down or go into our bed.She then has taken a good 45 minutes to put back to sleep.It's either this or she will be a nightmare to put to sleep,last night read her 7 stories,yes 7 and she wanted more,i said "no" and went out of the room and she went CRAZY! The only thing that got her back into bed was me telling her i was going to take her beloved "bun bun" away which i feel mean for saying but it worked!
Her speech is coming on more and more,earlier in the bath she got on all fours and said "Look mummy i am swimming like a fish" hehe so cute.
This was her the other day at the park,they've just put loads of new stuff in including 3 slides,she loves it!
Monday 25 April 2011
It's that time again.
My maternity leave is now up.I can't believe i have been off for nearly ten months.I am going back on the 3rd May and i have to do two silly weeks full time training.I am returning as a breastfeeding mama woop and work are being surprisingly cooperative.After the training i'll be back to my old 2.5 days a week.
After applying for several jobs and getting nowhere i have resigned myself to going back to my old job which i despise-sales.
I have never been so unhappy in my career.I am not a sales person,i couldn't sell sand to the Arabs.I want to do nursing/care work,if only someone would give me a chance but all it takes is someone to apply who has a teeny bit of experience and BHAM there's my chance gone.
I am thinking of doing some volunteer work at the hospital,helping the elderly around,making tea,helping the HCA's etc.I think i need to prove that it is what i want to do,which it is.I have been thinking about my career for years now and i know everyone says "wait a few years then concentrate on your career" but they do not work where i work.It is hell,they have such a high turnover that i will be surprised if any of my old colleagues still work there.
I am determined to have a new job by the end of the year.
After applying for several jobs and getting nowhere i have resigned myself to going back to my old job which i despise-sales.
I have never been so unhappy in my career.I am not a sales person,i couldn't sell sand to the Arabs.I want to do nursing/care work,if only someone would give me a chance but all it takes is someone to apply who has a teeny bit of experience and BHAM there's my chance gone.
I am thinking of doing some volunteer work at the hospital,helping the elderly around,making tea,helping the HCA's etc.I think i need to prove that it is what i want to do,which it is.I have been thinking about my career for years now and i know everyone says "wait a few years then concentrate on your career" but they do not work where i work.It is hell,they have such a high turnover that i will be surprised if any of my old colleagues still work there.
I am determined to have a new job by the end of the year.
Saturday 9 April 2011
How time flies.
I am 22 now! I feel old even though i'm not,the random grey hairs and bags under the eyes tell a different story.
An update on the girls,Olivia is trying to crawl,she sits up then throws herself forward,gets on all fours and starts rocking back and forth.I couldn't believe it! lol.She has also mastered sitting unaided now,she has amazing balance.I love her so much and her little chunky legs even if she can be the grumpiest baby going some days.
Madison is getting cheekier by the day,her speech is amazing and so clear.As it was my birthday she picked me a cinderella card and give it to me in the morning and said "Mummys birthday card,signed it" then i asked her who it was on it she replied "Barbie?" I said "no sweetie its Cinderella" she then replied "ooo we watched that film the other day".I can't believe she's only 2 she acts alot older!.
I had a quiet birthday,i just got myself a new piercing-Septum! which i love and some new clothes,i then went out for a lovely indian with some friends,it was nice to have some time out of the house without the kids.
An update on the girls,Olivia is trying to crawl,she sits up then throws herself forward,gets on all fours and starts rocking back and forth.I couldn't believe it! lol.She has also mastered sitting unaided now,she has amazing balance.I love her so much and her little chunky legs even if she can be the grumpiest baby going some days.
Madison is getting cheekier by the day,her speech is amazing and so clear.As it was my birthday she picked me a cinderella card and give it to me in the morning and said "Mummys birthday card,signed it" then i asked her who it was on it she replied "Barbie?" I said "no sweetie its Cinderella" she then replied "ooo we watched that film the other day".I can't believe she's only 2 she acts alot older!.
I had a quiet birthday,i just got myself a new piercing-Septum! which i love and some new clothes,i then went out for a lovely indian with some friends,it was nice to have some time out of the house without the kids.
Monday 28 March 2011
Growing up so quick.
Olivia will be 7 months old next week,and has mastered sitting unaided for a good 5 minutes that is until she loses her balance lol.
I am also 22 next week eek,i feel old! Plans for my birthday have been left in ruin due to Paul's work being arseholes (excuse my french).Thankfully the lovely lady who owns the cottage has said we can go later in the year.So instead I'm getting my septum pierced and going out for a meal with friends,god knows how Olivia will be.A complete nightmare i imagine but Paul will have to manage haha.
I am also 22 next week eek,i feel old! Plans for my birthday have been left in ruin due to Paul's work being arseholes (excuse my french).Thankfully the lovely lady who owns the cottage has said we can go later in the year.So instead I'm getting my septum pierced and going out for a meal with friends,god knows how Olivia will be.A complete nightmare i imagine but Paul will have to manage haha.
Wednesday 23 March 2011
Bah Humbug
Not in relation to Christmas,just in relation to me being grumpy at the fact i am so crap at mathematics!
I've just completed my key skills in English which i'm above level 2 in so all i need to do is go to a centre and take an exam and i have a GCSE C in English yippee,but mathematics on the otherhand i really struggle with.I've just finished up and am waiting for my tutor to call with the results and what to do next eek i hope i can just go in and take that course too :(.
I've just completed my key skills in English which i'm above level 2 in so all i need to do is go to a centre and take an exam and i have a GCSE C in English yippee,but mathematics on the otherhand i really struggle with.I've just finished up and am waiting for my tutor to call with the results and what to do next eek i hope i can just go in and take that course too :(.
Friday 18 March 2011
Bleurgh.
That is one word to describe exactly how i am feeling at the moment.Ill and sleep deprived!
I've had a cold for the past few days and it's left me with a horrible tickly cough,i haven't had a cold in nearly a year though so have done quite well lol.Hopefully i will be feeling better later as were going to the park and letting Madison fly a kite,she's so excited,let's hope theres enough wind,although i think Olivia could create some haha.
Madison is so cute at the moment she sang all of twinkle twinkle little star then added her own bit at the end "one step and TICKLE" then ran over and tickled Paul.I recorded her so will have to add it :).She also sings row,row your boat and incy wincy spider.Incy wincy spider just consists of "Incy Spider-arrrggggh!" then she proceeds to chase you whilst doing spider motions haha.
Right i am off to have another brew,horrendous sleep last night thanks to feeling thirsty and Olivia wanting feeding and me not being able to get comfy.
Bye all.
I shall leave you with a picture of the gorgeous Olivia.
I've had a cold for the past few days and it's left me with a horrible tickly cough,i haven't had a cold in nearly a year though so have done quite well lol.Hopefully i will be feeling better later as were going to the park and letting Madison fly a kite,she's so excited,let's hope theres enough wind,although i think Olivia could create some haha.
Madison is so cute at the moment she sang all of twinkle twinkle little star then added her own bit at the end "one step and TICKLE" then ran over and tickled Paul.I recorded her so will have to add it :).She also sings row,row your boat and incy wincy spider.Incy wincy spider just consists of "Incy Spider-arrrggggh!" then she proceeds to chase you whilst doing spider motions haha.
Right i am off to have another brew,horrendous sleep last night thanks to feeling thirsty and Olivia wanting feeding and me not being able to get comfy.
Bye all.
I shall leave you with a picture of the gorgeous Olivia.
Tuesday 15 March 2011
Babbling
Olivia is babbling!!!
It is so cute,in the past week she has been attempting to babble but nothing has been coming out she has just been moving her lips as if she was talking but in the last two days she has mastered it,it is so cute.
Ahh she is growing up so quick.
It is so cute,in the past week she has been attempting to babble but nothing has been coming out she has just been moving her lips as if she was talking but in the last two days she has mastered it,it is so cute.
Ahh she is growing up so quick.
Monday 14 March 2011
Life.
When a major disaster happens it really makes you take a step back and think that were actually quite lucky to live in this country,even with it's so called "government" Grr! Although in my mind i think we are due some kind of natural disaster over here.I read in the paper yesterday that its all to do with the moon being close to earth? (Must find a link,was quite scary reading"
I remember the tiny earthquake that happened here a few years ago and that was terrifying,Paul woke up thinking it was a burgular,i just had no idea,but if that was so powerful and probably didn't even make it onto the richter scale,what would 8.9 feel like? I just cannot imagine.
I feel blessed to have my family,my health and a nice warm roof over my head.
My heart goes out to all the people in Japan.
That is all.
I remember the tiny earthquake that happened here a few years ago and that was terrifying,Paul woke up thinking it was a burgular,i just had no idea,but if that was so powerful and probably didn't even make it onto the richter scale,what would 8.9 feel like? I just cannot imagine.
I feel blessed to have my family,my health and a nice warm roof over my head.
My heart goes out to all the people in Japan.
That is all.
Thursday 10 March 2011
Testing and trying times.
Well yesterday had to be one of the worst days i have experienced so far as a parent.Madison was extremely naughty not once but TWICE!.
I could of happily put her on eBay lol.
It all begun when we went shopping and she wanted to get out of the pram and walk in Mothercare so i said "okay" then she wouldn't hold my hand and ran away!.So i then put her back in her pram with great difficulty as i had Olivia in the moby.Madison kept throwing herself out and going all limp so i couldn't put her in.When i did get her in she started screaming "Let me out!! Mummy hold hands!" and i said "No as you ran away" then she started screaming screams I've never heard that were incredibly LOUD! I felt so embarrassed,i know i shouldn't of but i always feel as if people are staring at you when your child had a tantrum.This particular tantrum lasted around 20 minutes.Nothing i said or did calmed her down.And after all that she thought she would still be allowed a "gingy" (gingerbread man),I don't think so haha.
The thing is she never is this naughty with Paul,makes me think I'm a soft touch or is it because she spends 90% of her time with me? Hmm.
We then went upto my nans for dinner,sausage,mash and beans nom nom!
After a few hours there we thought we would leave and go and do some shopping which is where we had the 2nd big tantrum.Paul put Olivia in the trolley and Madison walked around with me,she took her gloves off and threw them on the floor so i put them in my pocket and carried on walking around.A few minutes later Madison started screaming for her gloves so i gave them her and she threw them again! So this time i put them in my pocket and said "no".
Madison greatly objected to this and when i tried to hold her hand she went all limp and threw herself on the floor and started screaming.I went to pick her up and she crawled away.Then i spent about 10 minutes looking for Paul.She soon calmed down when he told her off haha.
All in all a stressful day that i don't want to repeat anytime soon.
How can someone so cute be such a devil lol
I could of happily put her on eBay lol.
It all begun when we went shopping and she wanted to get out of the pram and walk in Mothercare so i said "okay" then she wouldn't hold my hand and ran away!.So i then put her back in her pram with great difficulty as i had Olivia in the moby.Madison kept throwing herself out and going all limp so i couldn't put her in.When i did get her in she started screaming "Let me out!! Mummy hold hands!" and i said "No as you ran away" then she started screaming screams I've never heard that were incredibly LOUD! I felt so embarrassed,i know i shouldn't of but i always feel as if people are staring at you when your child had a tantrum.This particular tantrum lasted around 20 minutes.Nothing i said or did calmed her down.And after all that she thought she would still be allowed a "gingy" (gingerbread man),I don't think so haha.
The thing is she never is this naughty with Paul,makes me think I'm a soft touch or is it because she spends 90% of her time with me? Hmm.
We then went upto my nans for dinner,sausage,mash and beans nom nom!
After a few hours there we thought we would leave and go and do some shopping which is where we had the 2nd big tantrum.Paul put Olivia in the trolley and Madison walked around with me,she took her gloves off and threw them on the floor so i put them in my pocket and carried on walking around.A few minutes later Madison started screaming for her gloves so i gave them her and she threw them again! So this time i put them in my pocket and said "no".
Madison greatly objected to this and when i tried to hold her hand she went all limp and threw herself on the floor and started screaming.I went to pick her up and she crawled away.Then i spent about 10 minutes looking for Paul.She soon calmed down when he told her off haha.
All in all a stressful day that i don't want to repeat anytime soon.
How can someone so cute be such a devil lol
Sunday 6 March 2011
Weaning
We have begun!
Olivia is now 6 months old-how FAST has that gone? Only seems like yesterday that i was in shock at having delivered her in the living room with no midwife lol
Look how much she has changed-
Birth
six months
I'm glad i waited till 6 months to properly start weaning as she seems so ready for it.
So far we've tried banana,nectarine,rice cakes,broccoli and toast.I must say toast is her favourite at the moment,she had TWO pieces this morning.I sat her in her bebepod and plonked them in front of her,she picked a piece up straight away and started gumming it,a little bit of gagging but nothing major,I read a good tip that says count to ten when they start gagging,Olivia has cleared it herself by number 3.
At the moment she is happily squeaking away and rolling over lol.
Ah weaning is so fun and messy,i love it!!!
Olivia is now 6 months old-how FAST has that gone? Only seems like yesterday that i was in shock at having delivered her in the living room with no midwife lol
Look how much she has changed-
Birth
six months
I'm glad i waited till 6 months to properly start weaning as she seems so ready for it.
So far we've tried banana,nectarine,rice cakes,broccoli and toast.I must say toast is her favourite at the moment,she had TWO pieces this morning.I sat her in her bebepod and plonked them in front of her,she picked a piece up straight away and started gumming it,a little bit of gagging but nothing major,I read a good tip that says count to ten when they start gagging,Olivia has cleared it herself by number 3.
At the moment she is happily squeaking away and rolling over lol.
Ah weaning is so fun and messy,i love it!!!
Thursday 3 March 2011
Tantrums
Madison definitely has the terrible two's!.She screamed ALL the way around Asda because i wouldn't let her have this "spider" toy.I was going to buy it her but she just kept throwing it out of the pram on purpose so i took it off her and said no which she wasn't too happy about.She has been in a grumpy mood the majority of the day until she.seen my dad aka "gandad" lol he kept calling her a lemon so she called him a "strawbey" bless.I love toddler speak!
Olivia is doing good she's now 15lb 5oz which isn't much of a gain but she's happy and healthy,that's what matters the most not where abouts she is on a graph.I only got her weighed to write it in her memory book lol.
I can't believe it's March already,i can't wait till our holiday at the end of the month!
I think we all need it.
Olivia is doing good she's now 15lb 5oz which isn't much of a gain but she's happy and healthy,that's what matters the most not where abouts she is on a graph.I only got her weighed to write it in her memory book lol.
I can't believe it's March already,i can't wait till our holiday at the end of the month!
I think we all need it.
Monday 28 February 2011
One Thing After Another.
My poorly baby Olivia has an ear infection in both ears i suspect,so were off to the doctors at 11.50am,hopefully they will give her some drops to clear it up,must be awful.Madison has never had an ear infection! I think Olivia will be the "sicky" baby of the two lol.
Sleep update-Madison sleeps really well she's thankfully not on her 5/5.30am wakeups anymore,last night she slept 6.30pm till 7am! Olivia on the other hand is a nightmare,last night was reasonably okay she slept 8pm-11pm then 11-12pm then i lost count of the wakeups so she ended up sleeping on me eek!
I don't think i would get any "quality" sleep otherwise.
I can't believe she is six months old this week! How fast has that gone?!? She now can sit unaided for a few seconds,which is becoming more each day,she is so different to Madison who started sitting up unaided around 7/8 months.
Ahh i love my girls!
Madisons cheeky saying of this week is to call everyone "bobby geldof" haha as Paul was watching a video,I asked who it was and Madison thought it was hilarious so thats what we are getting called this week,either that or she will point at you and go "you pudding!" haha.
I just LOVE what kids come out with,I definately prefer the "toddler" age to the "baby" age as they can tell you what they want lol makes things so much easier,Olivia is still very much a mummys girl,and its hit or miss at whether she will take a bottle **sigh**.I just have to keep telling myself it's not forever and its obviously better to have milk "on tap" lol.
We went to the park yesterday,Madison loves just walking around and exploring.There were alot of dogs there too,one came upto her and she went "smelly doggy" lol
Here are some photos-
Sleep update-Madison sleeps really well she's thankfully not on her 5/5.30am wakeups anymore,last night she slept 6.30pm till 7am! Olivia on the other hand is a nightmare,last night was reasonably okay she slept 8pm-11pm then 11-12pm then i lost count of the wakeups so she ended up sleeping on me eek!
I don't think i would get any "quality" sleep otherwise.
I can't believe she is six months old this week! How fast has that gone?!? She now can sit unaided for a few seconds,which is becoming more each day,she is so different to Madison who started sitting up unaided around 7/8 months.
Ahh i love my girls!
Madisons cheeky saying of this week is to call everyone "bobby geldof" haha as Paul was watching a video,I asked who it was and Madison thought it was hilarious so thats what we are getting called this week,either that or she will point at you and go "you pudding!" haha.
I just LOVE what kids come out with,I definately prefer the "toddler" age to the "baby" age as they can tell you what they want lol makes things so much easier,Olivia is still very much a mummys girl,and its hit or miss at whether she will take a bottle **sigh**.I just have to keep telling myself it's not forever and its obviously better to have milk "on tap" lol.
We went to the park yesterday,Madison loves just walking around and exploring.There were alot of dogs there too,one came upto her and she went "smelly doggy" lol
Here are some photos-
And a recent picture of Olivia,she i so cheeky,she was leaning out of her bouncer yesterday! She is so strong,it scared the life out of me lol.
Wednesday 23 February 2011
Frump Lump
I am in dire need of a makeover.I feel like such a frump.I think i may treat myself to some new clothes from the catalogue seeing as i owe less than £100 now :) and its my birthday in a few week.I need cheering up! lol Also thinking of dying my hair bright red but i have to go blond first which will not be pleasant haha but worth it,it's just finding the time to actually do it!
Update on the kiddies,they have been poorly with a virus,which has left Olivia with a bad cough bless,she wasn't feeding very well so we took her to the walk in centre just to make sure she was okay,I'm such a worrier but id rather be safe than sorry!! She seems alot better today,still coughing but all in all better! Madison though is getting cheekier by the day,i just cannot believe how clever she is!! She can count up to 10 now,when she has she says "Ready or not here i come" then comes over and tickles us,and she knows some French hehe she says "bonjour!" Ahh i love them so much!!!
Olivia will be six month old in 10 days which is when we will commence baby led weaning,she has had a few "tastes" as you know but seeing as shes been ill we've decided to leave trying her with anything else for a few weeks.I shall update and let you know how she gets on.
Plan for today,think i will get some eggs and do some baking with Madison,I've promised to do cakes with her for a week now lol she loves it!
Update on the kiddies,they have been poorly with a virus,which has left Olivia with a bad cough bless,she wasn't feeding very well so we took her to the walk in centre just to make sure she was okay,I'm such a worrier but id rather be safe than sorry!! She seems alot better today,still coughing but all in all better! Madison though is getting cheekier by the day,i just cannot believe how clever she is!! She can count up to 10 now,when she has she says "Ready or not here i come" then comes over and tickles us,and she knows some French hehe she says "bonjour!" Ahh i love them so much!!!
Olivia will be six month old in 10 days which is when we will commence baby led weaning,she has had a few "tastes" as you know but seeing as shes been ill we've decided to leave trying her with anything else for a few weeks.I shall update and let you know how she gets on.
Plan for today,think i will get some eggs and do some baking with Madison,I've promised to do cakes with her for a week now lol she loves it!
Saturday 12 February 2011
What a grump.
Olivia was a class A grump yesterday,I think there must of only been about ten minutes of no crying during this time she blew raspberries which she is loving again,very cute.I don't know what was wrong with her yesterday,i tried everything,she wasn't ill either,no temp etc,l.I felt inadequate as a mother,i should of known what was wrong with my baby.We tried her with some mashed carrot last night and she actually ate it! Madison was very fussy with vegetable s lol.I think i'm going to mash some food for Olivia for a few weeks until she can sit unaided a bit better,were only taking it very slow anyway,she's had banana and carrot upto now.Today we are trying butternut squash!
Interesting thought is was she hungry? As she actually slept better last night! Only one wake up!
Lets see how tonight goes!
Interesting thought is was she hungry? As she actually slept better last night! Only one wake up!
Lets see how tonight goes!
Monday 7 February 2011
First tastes
Olivia is 21 weeks old now and had a mushed up banana today! We just put some on a spoon,gave it her and she put it straight to her mouth and wolfed it down! This was after a full milk feed too,she was still crying as if she was hungry and she was!
I don't know whether to do a few homemade purees for a few weeks or to jump straight into BLW?.She can sit up well when supported and has extremely good head control.I think ill try her with a piece of brocholli and take it from there,see how she gets on.
Sleep is still not going well,we had 6+ wakeups for milk last night and also a 4.30am poop! Yuck i wasn't expecting that lol.Bath,milky,bed seems to be working on settling Olivia shes asleep now in my arms.Wish me luck on attempt #1 on putting her in her cot lol.
I don't know whether to do a few homemade purees for a few weeks or to jump straight into BLW?.She can sit up well when supported and has extremely good head control.I think ill try her with a piece of brocholli and take it from there,see how she gets on.
Sleep is still not going well,we had 6+ wakeups for milk last night and also a 4.30am poop! Yuck i wasn't expecting that lol.Bath,milky,bed seems to be working on settling Olivia shes asleep now in my arms.Wish me luck on attempt #1 on putting her in her cot lol.
Saturday 5 February 2011
Our House
Our house is haunted! There is no doubt about it.I know there are alot of non believers but if you spent a night here trust me you would be a believer by the morning!
I just love this quote,it sums up our house a treat-
"When all logical theories have been exhausted...all that is left is the illogical or the paranormal."
We have decided to get a paranormal investigation team in,now i don't know if this is a good thing or not,I am intrigued but at the same time terrified that this might make things worse.
Something needs to be done about it though,the bedroom is so eerie you just get the feeling that your not alone in there!
I mean how do you explain a doorbell going off that has NO batteries in! TWICE! Pauls an electrician and couldn't explain that one,then the other day i heard a light tapping,as did Paul a few nights before,but you just can't figure out where it is coming from.It's so very strange.
The scariest thing of all is that Paul seen a ghost,now he thinks it was his Nanna but can't be 100% sure,I hope it is his Nanna or my Grandad!
ARRGH! I think i freak myself out sometimes lol,I will update on this once the investigation has taken place.
On another happy note my Olivia Magoo is 5 months old today!! This time 5 months ago she wasn't even born and i wasn't even in labour haha.I can actually feel the bumps of her teeth now,she hasn't been half as grumpy although her sleep is doing my head in.I think a growth spurt combined with clingyness has sent her sleeping patterns off the rails,we are still doing bath,milky,bed which seems to settle her off to sleep but she just doesn't stay asleep!
Were talking a maximum of one hour,she will only sleep longer if she is with me and to be honest the last few nights she has slept on my chest so i can at least get a few hours and be less zombiefied in the morning.I know it's not going to be forever,Madison was exactly the same and when she went on forumla she was alot less clingier but i'm determined to breastfeed Olivia till she's at least one year old.
Right i best be off seeing as someone is doing me a little present haha oh the joys!
I just love this quote,it sums up our house a treat-
"When all logical theories have been exhausted...all that is left is the illogical or the paranormal."
We have decided to get a paranormal investigation team in,now i don't know if this is a good thing or not,I am intrigued but at the same time terrified that this might make things worse.
Something needs to be done about it though,the bedroom is so eerie you just get the feeling that your not alone in there!
I mean how do you explain a doorbell going off that has NO batteries in! TWICE! Pauls an electrician and couldn't explain that one,then the other day i heard a light tapping,as did Paul a few nights before,but you just can't figure out where it is coming from.It's so very strange.
The scariest thing of all is that Paul seen a ghost,now he thinks it was his Nanna but can't be 100% sure,I hope it is his Nanna or my Grandad!
ARRGH! I think i freak myself out sometimes lol,I will update on this once the investigation has taken place.
On another happy note my Olivia Magoo is 5 months old today!! This time 5 months ago she wasn't even born and i wasn't even in labour haha.I can actually feel the bumps of her teeth now,she hasn't been half as grumpy although her sleep is doing my head in.I think a growth spurt combined with clingyness has sent her sleeping patterns off the rails,we are still doing bath,milky,bed which seems to settle her off to sleep but she just doesn't stay asleep!
Were talking a maximum of one hour,she will only sleep longer if she is with me and to be honest the last few nights she has slept on my chest so i can at least get a few hours and be less zombiefied in the morning.I know it's not going to be forever,Madison was exactly the same and when she went on forumla she was alot less clingier but i'm determined to breastfeed Olivia till she's at least one year old.
Right i best be off seeing as someone is doing me a little present haha oh the joys!
Wednesday 2 February 2011
Awake but sleeping
I am so tired it is unreal.Olivia will just NOT sleep unless i am holding or nursing her.I remember Madison being like this-clingy but she wasn't half as bad as Olivia is,she won't even let Paul hold her.Olivia is asleep in my arms now,doing little sleepy smiles,she is unbelievably cute but oh how i wish she would sleep.I am going to attempt to put her in her cot again soon,this will be attempt 4/5,I've even put my top in there so she can smell my scent but nothings working,she just wants ME! which flattering it may be is wearing me out,I feel as if i'm running on empty.
Here goes to another attempt and a sleepless night.I forgot how hard they were even more harder with a toddler.I take my hat off to anyone with more than two kids.
When your a mum the nights are short,days are long,tiring,and hardwork but i wouldn't change it for the world as when i get my "big smacker" (kiss) off Madison or a gummy smile off Olivia i know its all worth it.
Here goes to another attempt and a sleepless night.I forgot how hard they were even more harder with a toddler.I take my hat off to anyone with more than two kids.
When your a mum the nights are short,days are long,tiring,and hardwork but i wouldn't change it for the world as when i get my "big smacker" (kiss) off Madison or a gummy smile off Olivia i know its all worth it.
Monday 31 January 2011
Bath,Milky,Bed
I have finally started getting Olivia into a routine,night two was last night,she had her bath and fell asleep on the sofa afterwards haha so i gave her a sleepy feed and she was asleep in her cot at 7.30pm! she then slept till 10pm had another feed slept till 12.30am had a feed then slept till 3am.Can you see the pattern? Every 2 and a half hours.I am so tired but thankfully Madison had a lie in this morning which is very unusual i actually got worried! She woke up at 7am instead of 6am.
I can't believe its February already,I bet this year will fly by.My maternity pay runs out in May so i'm hoping to get a new job around then,I can't face going back to my old job,yes the hours were good but the actual work was horrid and so were the majority of the people who worked there and you just know when your face doesn't fit.I'm hoping to get into care work in the evening so Paul can look after the kids,although we do still have the problem of Olivia not taking a bottle! We tried again the other night and she just messed with the teat,had a few sucks then got angry and would only feed off me.It's nice in a way that she only wants me but on the other hand when am i going to have a break?? I wanted to have a good few beers for my birthday in April but i won't be able to now lol good job i love you Olivia! And i wanted to breastfeed for a year anyway lol
Plan of action for today is to go playgroup with the girls then have a bit of shop,come home and relax ahhh,I best go and get my gorgeous girls ready.
I can't believe its February already,I bet this year will fly by.My maternity pay runs out in May so i'm hoping to get a new job around then,I can't face going back to my old job,yes the hours were good but the actual work was horrid and so were the majority of the people who worked there and you just know when your face doesn't fit.I'm hoping to get into care work in the evening so Paul can look after the kids,although we do still have the problem of Olivia not taking a bottle! We tried again the other night and she just messed with the teat,had a few sucks then got angry and would only feed off me.It's nice in a way that she only wants me but on the other hand when am i going to have a break?? I wanted to have a good few beers for my birthday in April but i won't be able to now lol good job i love you Olivia! And i wanted to breastfeed for a year anyway lol
Plan of action for today is to go playgroup with the girls then have a bit of shop,come home and relax ahhh,I best go and get my gorgeous girls ready.
Wednesday 26 January 2011
Well,Well,Well.
Olivia has put on 11oz in 14 days! The little chunk,she is back to being on the 50th percentile now,but i think that is the last time i am going to get her weighed.I can see shes healthy and shes meeting milestones etc,the worry over her weight just give me unnecessary stress.
I really love breastfeeding at the moment,i am so glad i perserved with it with both girls.I can't imagine making bottles at daft o clock lol! but not just that i love the bond that it gives me and Olivia,the bond that only we as mother and daughter have.It's such a shame that some people don't even try,at the clinic today which is in chav central near my nans,there was only me breastfeeding out of what must of been around 10 mums! Shocking :(
Madison went to bed at 6pm tonight bless her cottons,she hasn't had a nap all day! but has had a very busy day,went to nannys and did some "cooking" lol,i'm just hoping this early night doesnt induce a 5am wakeup eek!
I sometimes wonder if i have any "real" friends,seeing as someone i let be at the birth of my child decides to go out with someone else when we have made plans then lie and go out with someone else instead of me and not even let me know really upset me **sigh**..ahh you know what..fook her as she just isn't worthy of my friendship,i am better than let this get me down! Id love a friend who i could speak to everyday and see all the time and you known just do girly things with,but they seem so hard to find! :( I am in a rather sad mood tonight,i think it is time for a brew and a film on my own.
What a life i lead.If it wasn't for my family i don't think id bother! The thought of us all moving away and starting anew is seeming more and more appealing day by day.
I really love breastfeeding at the moment,i am so glad i perserved with it with both girls.I can't imagine making bottles at daft o clock lol! but not just that i love the bond that it gives me and Olivia,the bond that only we as mother and daughter have.It's such a shame that some people don't even try,at the clinic today which is in chav central near my nans,there was only me breastfeeding out of what must of been around 10 mums! Shocking :(
Madison went to bed at 6pm tonight bless her cottons,she hasn't had a nap all day! but has had a very busy day,went to nannys and did some "cooking" lol,i'm just hoping this early night doesnt induce a 5am wakeup eek!
I sometimes wonder if i have any "real" friends,seeing as someone i let be at the birth of my child decides to go out with someone else when we have made plans then lie and go out with someone else instead of me and not even let me know really upset me **sigh**..ahh you know what..fook her as she just isn't worthy of my friendship,i am better than let this get me down! Id love a friend who i could speak to everyday and see all the time and you known just do girly things with,but they seem so hard to find! :( I am in a rather sad mood tonight,i think it is time for a brew and a film on my own.
What a life i lead.If it wasn't for my family i don't think id bother! The thought of us all moving away and starting anew is seeming more and more appealing day by day.
Tuesday 25 January 2011
I am surprised
I am surprised at how different Olivia is to Madison.Olivia is now rolling over! Madison didn't roll over until at least 6/7 months,that being said Olivia has been able to hold her own head up from birth,the midwife said she had never seen such a strong baby and that she was more like a one month old than a newborn.
We are now hearing more and more noises too,Olivia sounds so squeaky bless,she makes me giggle when i see her trying to get her toy frog whilst holding onto her feet lol.
I have just weighed her on my digital scales and she has put on approx 3oz in two weeks eek,I know what to expect tomorrow the "weaning" word.I will not be weaning her though as she is satisfied with milk.If she was like Madison at her age who was on horrible baby rice,(I know so much more than i did then!),I'd think she was ready for weaning as Madison used to feed every hour even through the night whereas Olivia feeds every 2/3 hours.
Nap time now yippee,hopefully we will have around two hours,you know your a mum when you get excited about nap time haha.
Pointless post really but i just want to keep date of Olivias milestones!
Hopefully will be updating with some toothy grins soon lol
We are now hearing more and more noises too,Olivia sounds so squeaky bless,she makes me giggle when i see her trying to get her toy frog whilst holding onto her feet lol.
I have just weighed her on my digital scales and she has put on approx 3oz in two weeks eek,I know what to expect tomorrow the "weaning" word.I will not be weaning her though as she is satisfied with milk.If she was like Madison at her age who was on horrible baby rice,(I know so much more than i did then!),I'd think she was ready for weaning as Madison used to feed every hour even through the night whereas Olivia feeds every 2/3 hours.
Nap time now yippee,hopefully we will have around two hours,you know your a mum when you get excited about nap time haha.
Pointless post really but i just want to keep date of Olivias milestones!
Hopefully will be updating with some toothy grins soon lol
Monday 24 January 2011
Nearly the end of January.
Well end of January nearly,I can't believe that by the end of this year i will be a mother to a 3 year old and a one year old.Crazy.I saying in school i would never have kids.Mad how things change,I wouldn't be without my girls now!
As i sit hear now i can hear Olivia gurgling away on her playmat whilst Madison is laughing her head off at her,melts my heart seeing them so being so sweet together.Although Madison did throw a snow globe at Olivias head the other day ouch.On the whole she is a brilliant big sister :)
I am so not used to having such a loud baby,Olivia squeaks her little head off and gurgles all day long when she is not having a bad teething moment that is.Oh the blood curdling screams i will never forget them argh.
At the moment Olivias new thing is trying to eat her feet she trys her hardest bless.
Check out those so called underweight legs! haha
I shall have to go as Livi is crying now,I think the playmat has took it out of her lol
x
As i sit hear now i can hear Olivia gurgling away on her playmat whilst Madison is laughing her head off at her,melts my heart seeing them so being so sweet together.Although Madison did throw a snow globe at Olivias head the other day ouch.On the whole she is a brilliant big sister :)
I am so not used to having such a loud baby,Olivia squeaks her little head off and gurgles all day long when she is not having a bad teething moment that is.Oh the blood curdling screams i will never forget them argh.
At the moment Olivias new thing is trying to eat her feet she trys her hardest bless.
Check out those so called underweight legs! haha
I shall have to go as Livi is crying now,I think the playmat has took it out of her lol
x
Monday 17 January 2011
The Big Bed Transition
Madison finally went into her big bed on Saturday night,it only took two attempts of getting her in there,which is alot less than i thought then she was fast asleep.Although she did wake up at 5am,I hate 5am wake ups! I am quite surprised that she hasn't started running around her room in the morning,she just sits in the bed with her Louie lamb bless.My little girl is not so little anymore!
My littlest Magoo Olivia is teething so badly i really feel for her,her bottom gums are red raw and two little white teeth are trying to poke through.Madison keeps saying "babies peggys coming" lol.Teething gel does work to a point but last night she was hysterical with them,usually putting her on the boob will settle her but she wouldn't even have that.Sometimes i just think that i would like a break,is that bad?
I don't seem to have time to even go to the loo in peace anymore.I love Olivia but i just need sleep,I do more a less all the caring of Olivia,is it any wonder I'm starting to feel burnt out?
Hopefully our little holiday in 2 months time and Olivia starting solids will make things a little better.
**sigh**
My littlest Magoo Olivia is teething so badly i really feel for her,her bottom gums are red raw and two little white teeth are trying to poke through.Madison keeps saying "babies peggys coming" lol.Teething gel does work to a point but last night she was hysterical with them,usually putting her on the boob will settle her but she wouldn't even have that.Sometimes i just think that i would like a break,is that bad?
I don't seem to have time to even go to the loo in peace anymore.I love Olivia but i just need sleep,I do more a less all the caring of Olivia,is it any wonder I'm starting to feel burnt out?
Hopefully our little holiday in 2 months time and Olivia starting solids will make things a little better.
**sigh**
Thursday 13 January 2011
The smallest magoo
is underweight apparently as at 18 weeks she is 14lbs exactly,I'm not worried to be honest i am more annoyed than anything else.They as in the "HVs" want me to take her back to the clinic in two weeks to see if she has put weight on.I think if she hasn't put alot on they will be mentioning weaning even though after looking around on the net i have found that breastfed babies start to gain weight slower after the 4 month mark and infact it is the forumla fed baby that is growing too quickly! Makes sense really seeing as a breastfed infant can regulate how much food they want.
As for Madison and her "big bed" we are still yet to try it lol,she woke at 5am yesterday and didn't have a nap so it was a very LONG day to say the least although she did go to bed at 6.30pm and stayed asleep till 6am.The "big bed" transition will be taking place at weekend now.
I have just watched the programme one born every minute and cannot believe the woman who was in the first episode.What a drama queen,yes labour is painful that why it is called labour.She was screaming and being hysterical,probably didnt help that she was strapped to the bed unable to walk around and let gravity help with the birthing process but still.**sigh**
As for Madison and her "big bed" we are still yet to try it lol,she woke at 5am yesterday and didn't have a nap so it was a very LONG day to say the least although she did go to bed at 6.30pm and stayed asleep till 6am.The "big bed" transition will be taking place at weekend now.
I have just watched the programme one born every minute and cannot believe the woman who was in the first episode.What a drama queen,yes labour is painful that why it is called labour.She was screaming and being hysterical,probably didnt help that she was strapped to the bed unable to walk around and let gravity help with the birthing process but still.**sigh**
Wednesday 12 January 2011
What a kerfuffle!
Well last night did not go to plan at all.
Paul went and picked up the toddler bed with Steve his step dad and on the way back the they must of gone over a bump or something and the bed has smashed the back window eek!
Steve was not impressed to say the least but it's not Paul's fault its just one of those things.So Madison did not end up in her big bed last night she just decided to bounce all over the mattress lol were are going for attempt number 2 tonight!
Plans for today are to sort the washing out which i have nearly finished,apply for a cleaning job,its only four hours a week and a bit of extra cash for us,go up to my Mum and Nans and get Olivia weighed.Olivia hasn't been weighed for more than 7 weeks now and at her last weigh in was 12lb 12oz! Shes such a chunky baby with chunky legs,I love them lol I think she will be around the 14lb/15lb mark now as i did weigh her on my scales and it said she was more than a stone.We shall see!
She had her injections yesterday too poor baby,I've never heard her sob like that before she was struggling to get her breath as she got herself so worked up! But thankfully she is in a better mood today :)
Hopefully tomorrow i will be able to update on how Madison's first night in the big bed worked out lol
And just a picture of Madison i LOVE!
She is such a cutie.
Paul went and picked up the toddler bed with Steve his step dad and on the way back the they must of gone over a bump or something and the bed has smashed the back window eek!
Steve was not impressed to say the least but it's not Paul's fault its just one of those things.So Madison did not end up in her big bed last night she just decided to bounce all over the mattress lol were are going for attempt number 2 tonight!
Plans for today are to sort the washing out which i have nearly finished,apply for a cleaning job,its only four hours a week and a bit of extra cash for us,go up to my Mum and Nans and get Olivia weighed.Olivia hasn't been weighed for more than 7 weeks now and at her last weigh in was 12lb 12oz! Shes such a chunky baby with chunky legs,I love them lol I think she will be around the 14lb/15lb mark now as i did weigh her on my scales and it said she was more than a stone.We shall see!
She had her injections yesterday too poor baby,I've never heard her sob like that before she was struggling to get her breath as she got herself so worked up! But thankfully she is in a better mood today :)
Hopefully tomorrow i will be able to update on how Madison's first night in the big bed worked out lol
And just a picture of Madison i LOVE!
She is such a cutie.
Tuesday 11 January 2011
Where did my little girl go?
It only seems five minutes ago she was being placed on my chest after birth,now Madison is TWO years old!
People said time would go fast when she was born and i didn't believe them as the pregnancy had dragged so much.
Tonight Madison is going into a toddler bed,we won it off Ebay for £11! It was over £200 new! I wonder if she is going to be running wild? Lol
I am hoping though that now in the mornings she will play with her toys for a little while as she is still a very early riser 5/6am were lucky if we get 6.30am lol
My little girl is no longer a baby! Her speech is coming along so well too,suprising really as Madison just blew raspbwrrys for months lol now she is stringing 3/4 word sentances together.
At this moment in time she is running around waving her "wriggly worm" lol
I will update tomorrow on the first night in the big girls bed!
People said time would go fast when she was born and i didn't believe them as the pregnancy had dragged so much.
Tonight Madison is going into a toddler bed,we won it off Ebay for £11! It was over £200 new! I wonder if she is going to be running wild? Lol
I am hoping though that now in the mornings she will play with her toys for a little while as she is still a very early riser 5/6am were lucky if we get 6.30am lol
My little girl is no longer a baby! Her speech is coming along so well too,suprising really as Madison just blew raspbwrrys for months lol now she is stringing 3/4 word sentances together.
At this moment in time she is running around waving her "wriggly worm" lol
I will update tomorrow on the first night in the big girls bed!
Wednesday 5 January 2011
All about me
Thought i would do a short survey seeing as some of you don't know me very well,this will give you an insight into ones mind.
Name:Simone
Birthday: 07/04/1989
Birthplace: Tameside Hospital
Current Location:Manchester
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed
The Shoes You Wore Today: Black boots
Your Fears:Spiders and slugs,i despise the things
Your Perfect Pizza: Anything spicy
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To pass my driving test
Thoughts First Waking Up: "I hope it's not 5am" lol Madisons favourite time of waking up although occasionally i do get a 6/6.30am lie in!
Your Best Physical Feature: Eyes
Your Bedtime: 10/11pm or earlier lol
Do you Smoke: No,tried it,didn't like it and couldn't even inahle the damn thing
Do you Swear: Yes although i have cut down alot since having the girls as Madison is like a sponge and picks up anything.
Do you get along with your Parents: Yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms: Love thunderstorms!
Do you play an Instrument: I can play the guitar a bit lol
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes a bottle of berry cider
Number of CDs I own:None i download music
Number of Piercings: 3 but i want to get my septum and side lip pierced very soon
Number of Tattoos: 0 :( if i had the money i would have alot!
And a random old picture of me for todays pic of the day
This was me around 5 years ago with pink hair looking very mood haha and about 3 stone heavier than i am now.
Name:Simone
Birthday: 07/04/1989
Birthplace: Tameside Hospital
Current Location:Manchester
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Brown
Height: 5'5
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right handed
The Shoes You Wore Today: Black boots
Your Fears:Spiders and slugs,i despise the things
Your Perfect Pizza: Anything spicy
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To pass my driving test
Thoughts First Waking Up: "I hope it's not 5am" lol Madisons favourite time of waking up although occasionally i do get a 6/6.30am lie in!
Your Best Physical Feature: Eyes
Your Bedtime: 10/11pm or earlier lol
Do you Smoke: No,tried it,didn't like it and couldn't even inahle the damn thing
Do you Swear: Yes although i have cut down alot since having the girls as Madison is like a sponge and picks up anything.
Do you get along with your Parents: Yeah
Do you like Thunderstorms: Love thunderstorms!
Do you play an Instrument: I can play the guitar a bit lol
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: Yes a bottle of berry cider
Number of CDs I own:None i download music
Number of Piercings: 3 but i want to get my septum and side lip pierced very soon
Number of Tattoos: 0 :( if i had the money i would have alot!
And a random old picture of me for todays pic of the day
This was me around 5 years ago with pink hair looking very mood haha and about 3 stone heavier than i am now.
Tuesday 4 January 2011
Photos,Holiday,Growth Spurts
Well our holiday to the humblebee cottage in Yorkshire is booked we have had to change the date which i don't mind.We have the cottage with the hot tub and log fire.How lush.I cannot wait,our first little holiday together.
Imagine that with Champagne and Strawberry's yum yum.
The last time i went away on holiday was to Gran Canaria with a friend when i was 14 weeks pregnant with Madison.Lets just say it wasn't thoroughly enjoyed lol.It is like Blackpool with sun over there! I wouldn't go back even if you paid me lol.
Here are some pictures from Christmas
I cannot believe how BIG Olivia is getting i tried a 6-9 month romper on her yesterday and it fit! She is only 4 months old tomorrow.
Last night she was feeding every two hours which is sooo tiring she normally has at least a 6-8 stretch :( but her little giggles make it all so very worthwhile!
Imagine that with Champagne and Strawberry's yum yum.
The last time i went away on holiday was to Gran Canaria with a friend when i was 14 weeks pregnant with Madison.Lets just say it wasn't thoroughly enjoyed lol.It is like Blackpool with sun over there! I wouldn't go back even if you paid me lol.
Here are some pictures from Christmas
I cannot believe how BIG Olivia is getting i tried a 6-9 month romper on her yesterday and it fit! She is only 4 months old tomorrow.
Last night she was feeding every two hours which is sooo tiring she normally has at least a 6-8 stretch :( but her little giggles make it all so very worthwhile!
Sunday 2 January 2011
Sleep
Will i ever sleep through the night again? I remember being pregnant with Madison and going to bed at 5am then getting up at 4pm! Glad i made the most of it whilst i could.
Olivia has been waking up every 2/3 hours but settles back to sleep fairly easily,it's Paul who is keeping me up with his messing about at daft o clock!
I cannot even remember the last time i ever slept past 8am wherras a certain somebody got up at nearly midday yesterday.
Bleurgh exhaustion.
Olivia has been waking up every 2/3 hours but settles back to sleep fairly easily,it's Paul who is keeping me up with his messing about at daft o clock!
I cannot even remember the last time i ever slept past 8am wherras a certain somebody got up at nearly midday yesterday.
Bleurgh exhaustion.
What really gets my goat.
I am in a ranting mood so here goes.
People saying my daughter looks like a boy.She is in pink with a skirt on i don't know how much more girly she can possibly get!
People who wean their baby obscenely early ie-before 12 weeks old.Someone i know gave a seven week old baby a CHOCOLATE button! Poor baby belly having to digest that at such an early age.Olivia is 17 weeks old now and has had nothing but breastmilk.
An untidy house-I try my hardest to keep the house tidy but it seems to get untidier quicker than it takes to actually tidy up lol if we ever came into some money i'd definitely have a cleaner to actually tidy up lol.
People who panic buy.We went shopping for Christmas and seen a lady with SIX boxes of eggs! There is just no need it is not as if there isn't a single shop open.
Neighbours-Awful,loud,benefit scrounging scrotes! They have just got a new stereo which will no doubt be played wuth at all hours!
There is alot more as i am a new age Victor Meldrew but i have one grumpy little lady so will update later.
People saying my daughter looks like a boy.She is in pink with a skirt on i don't know how much more girly she can possibly get!
People who wean their baby obscenely early ie-before 12 weeks old.Someone i know gave a seven week old baby a CHOCOLATE button! Poor baby belly having to digest that at such an early age.Olivia is 17 weeks old now and has had nothing but breastmilk.
An untidy house-I try my hardest to keep the house tidy but it seems to get untidier quicker than it takes to actually tidy up lol if we ever came into some money i'd definitely have a cleaner to actually tidy up lol.
People who panic buy.We went shopping for Christmas and seen a lady with SIX boxes of eggs! There is just no need it is not as if there isn't a single shop open.
Neighbours-Awful,loud,benefit scrounging scrotes! They have just got a new stereo which will no doubt be played wuth at all hours!
There is alot more as i am a new age Victor Meldrew but i have one grumpy little lady so will update later.
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